It’s amazing
No one can ever
Get to you walking straight lines
Through the labyrinth we travel
Never knowing where the path is gonna take us

Am I getting closer to you
Is this the right direction
One wrong turn and I could lose you forever
Is this the right way?
It must be the right way

But you’re not hiding
You lie in wait
you’re an animal stalking
What do you want?
Do you remember
how it feels to be able to belong to the world today?
In any way
Is there anything left in there?
What went wrong to make you empty inside
Something someone said
Got into your head?

There was a time long ago
When you weren’t so inaccessible.
But no one here can see you now
You live in the shadows of your paranoia.
And you don’t feel anything.

You’re a spider
Under cover
of the shadows in the darkness
Will you kill us
or will you wrap us
in your web until you eat us?
Or let us get away to come back again another day?
There’s something human still inside
Won’t you dig down deep and let us slide

To come back again
another day?
To come back again
another day?
To come back again
another day?
To come back again
another day?

Come back!

You finally caught some attention
There’s nothing more I can do – they’ve finally noticed
That you are traveling so high
They have to squint to catch a glimpse of you
Your eyes are staring but you don’t see
The teacher’s calling your name
And as you focus back in the little room you’ve been sitting in
You wonder why you have to play this game
I used to think you’d never cross the brink
And nobody’d ever know, but

Jonathan, where are you now?
Are you lost in space? Are you dreaming of something?
I don’t know where you’ve ended up this time.
Where are you out there?  

The folks thought they had you covered
They taught you how to survive – but they were busy
Never noticing who you
Were really growing up to be inside
Sometimes you’re here but then you go
And it’s not so hard to see
That in all eternity, in all the vastness of space
You’ve finally found a place where you are free

Now you should know I wish that I could go
But I’ve learned to carry on and on and  

Jonathan, where are you now?
Are you lost in space?
Are you dreaming of something
So profound no one else understands you?
Where are you out there?
Jonathan, where do you go?
Are you lost inside?
Are you feeling alone?
This world is big but the universe larger
where are you out there?  

Take me with you, I won’t make noise
I want to get away from all this plastic artificial nonsense
There’s nothing real
I try to fit in but I just can’t feel
I need to grow, I need to break it down
In this tiny box we’re living in this tiny town
There’s something bigger out where you are
Give me what you’ve got to get me there!  

Jonathan, where are you now?
Are you lost in space?
Are you dreaming of something?
In this world there is nothing to hold you
Silently we all wish we could follow
Yearning for something we’ve searched all our lives for
Where are you out there?

Along the line where land and sky caress
A tiny dot is slowly moving to the west
It fades and sparkles
If you close your eyes you will miss it
Nomad wanders in the setting sun
So alone and drifting – completely undone
Attached to nothing
Seeking calm in the dull desolation

Sky walls made of colors
It’s hard to know what he sees
With the images swirling inside his head
Everything blends into the scenery

A life in chaos by his own design
A wayward drifter looking for a sign
He walks with purpose
But the purpose is hiding in shadows
The path he travels he treads alone
With demons in his head and dread in his bones
To find his freedom
He must look behind for the answer

He falls and he’s floating
Colors now fade into black
Avoiding decisions he made long ago
He moves forward and never looks back

Along the line where land and sky caress
A tiny dot is slowly moving to the west
It fades and sparkles
If you close your eyes

You will miss it

This beautiful being
So close to my heart
Impossibly amazing
She’s a work of art
And the best thing
I get to spend my life with her beside me
And deep inside me

Before her my life
Was wild and untamed
I surely would have crashed
Into a ball of flames
She straightened me out
She turned the demons in me into butterflies
With a blink of her eyes

Sometimes I take for granted what’s been given me
I lose sight of all the beauty in my life
And I know that I’m not perfect but I’m perfectly
Able to resolve this inner strife

Moving together
Into the unknown
The road before us brighter
Than the one’s I’ve known
And with her there
We’ll travel to a million special places
And find life’s graces
I will always cherish everything she gives me
And I give her all of my love

I lay down on my mattress
Eyes are heavy and I
Slowly tumble into darkness
Down a darkened hole
I fall until I lay
Upon a magic mound of softness

Open my eyes and look around
Nature is now the only sound

Everything’s green and soft and fragrant

Surrounded by moss and mystic green
Deep in a forest I’ve never seen before
How can I return to the places I’ve been
Life in chaos and people in an uproar

I think I’ll stay deep in the dream
Surrounded by moss and mystic green
I won’t go back from where I came
I can’t continue to play that game

Voices calling from a dismal distance
And in every instance I don’t miss it
I listen close to the insanity
I really try to see what they elicit

Open my heart to peace and love
Far from what I hear above

Nothing is harsh or mean or flagrant

Surrounded by moss and mystic green
Deep in a forest, I’ve never seen before
How can I return to the places I’ve been
Life and chaos, people in an uproar

I think I’ll stay down where it’s clean
Surrounded by moss and mystic green
Where I can block out all the vile and vitriolic venom

Here I’m protected from the madness above
Up on the surface there is nothing to love
Believe me I’ve tried
And I’ve tried
And insanity wins every time
That world is not for me

There’s snow on the desert
The world is upside down
Nothing is the way it was when I was younger
As I’m growing older
The world keeps turning ‘round
Gravity and time keep everyone

Honest and humble
Filtered and filed
Trained not to tumble

I look back in the mirror
And see the crazy me
Now I lead a life of cautious choices
Wild crazy diversions
The guy I used to be
Tamed into respectability

Subdued and swaddled
Laundered and lame
Walk with a waddle

Chorus:
Don’t sit still when you’re able to climb
Take your shot while you’ve still got the time
You’ve got it all
When you’re in your prime

You keep moving forward
That will never change
Nothing will prevent your mind from innovation
But crazy ambition
And animal desire
Get seriously tricky as you hobble along

Back-channel breakdowns
Wasted and weak
Clandestine crumbles

Chorus:
So don’t sit still when you’re able to climb
Take your shot while you’ve still got the time
You’ve got it all
When you’re in your prime
You look so good and you feel so fit
Strutting down the street so you can show your shit
With those abs and those pecs
You’re rockin it
There will be a time when an ounce weighs a ton
Lift the weight of the world before your strength is undone
We all have the chance
To dance in the sun

I can’t bring myself to acknowledge that she walked out of my life
She was supposed to be with me forever
The times we had were special, man
The laughs, the good times, the jokes I used to play on her
Were all special in my mind
I remember her smile but also how sad she sometimes looked
And I couldn’t understand why
With all the joy and happiness I felt
There is no reason I can think of that would cause her to feel that way
For me, physical contact was supposed to be a two way street
I begged her to slap me back
And the occasional verbal insult wasn’t meant to be serious
All I ever wanted was for us to be comfortable
And for us to be respectful of each other
And when that sometimes didn’t happen
The anger never lasted long
So, now she’s gone and I just can’t understand why
Was it me?

Verse 1:
Ah the beauty
of laying low
Kicking back
And taking it slow

If I could only
make it last
But things accelerate
From slow to fast

Brain’s too active
it needs to cool
It rips the peace
like a power tool

Where’s the forest
Where’s the beach
Where’s the solitude
Out of reach

Chorus:
How to release
The chaos within
The forward momentum
The buzzing, the spin

Bring it all down
From a furious boil
And begin to decompress

Verse 2:
Impulsive thoughts
with no regard
For sanity
They push me hard

So here’s a thought
To rule them all
I’m in control
So heed my call

Zen and yoga
Meditation
Mindfulness
Bring remediation

There’s a place in your mind
away from the crowd
Where the din of existing
Is not so loud